Gathering round in a circle, singing and dreaming of better days…your palm in mine strengthens my mind for the days ahead. Preparing for her special debut; Full Moon. So beautiful, so strong and so present. Wanting to be more present myself in all that I do. Holding myself up in the light, I feel it…I look around to see everyone absorbing and taking it all in. First a sliver, then the clouds open up and magic pours from them, turning us all into shimmering stones, sparkling brighter from laughter and joy. Emotions on high, speaking with direct intention and paying attention to the flow of my words. The sweetest things are revealed just as she appears in all her glory. All night we tell stories and we vow to hold each other up in love.
So soft to the touch…I pick them when they are just about to fall off…something special and so sweet about nurturing a plant and how it rewards your efforts with sweetness. 💖
Transformation is the key, the process by which I become a better me…flowering internally, vast like eternity…I feel a connection to the trees, how they flower in Spring and in the Autumn, they bring change…the birth pangs of life creating in me something new, something strange…I knew this time would come, there is no place to run or hide, my eyes are open wide…cracking open the code to really feel what it takes to grow…realizing that it’s okay for all of my emotions to show. Especially love and sadness, how about happiness, and what of anger? Life lessons are always going to be synonymous with our emotional expressions…it is okay to hurt, it is okay to feel lost, it is okay to be overwhelmed and afraid. We don’t always know the rules of the games being played…so let us remember the words we utter every day to ourselves…are they sweet? Are they kind? Do we give ourselves permission to “fall behind?” Not so much, but we should, we could and we can…all we have is this moment and worry is nothing but the mind’s torment; which can be to our detriment. And so I am speaking to myself when I say, just be treated by the beauty of this day.. It is new and refreshing, a beautiful blessing…just. like. me. AND just. like. you.
Let us hold each other ever so closer because I guarantee, everyone could use a hug right about now…a sincere word, an “it’s gonna be okay” followed by something fun that wasn’t planned. Like, a day trip to the country or beach, a pan of fresh baked brownies, a song sung from the heart, a poem written just for them. I guarantee there’s someone out there hurting and alone, so let’s be there for each other without any expectations. Let’s get away from assuming someone is okay because we just saw their “status” and the pics they posted on Instagram.
We. All. Are. Going. Through. Something…let’s take the time to care…it will always matter.
I love my family, my blood family that is, but I would be lying if I said that I have always felt that they understood me and supported me. I have some soul connections in the form of friends that have listened to me tell them painful secrets that some of my own family does not know and vice versa. They say that our friends are the family that we choose for ourselves; how beautiful is that? I believe we have to create this kind of “spiritual” family, especially those of us who are in deep transition in our lives; transition to a new self, a new way of being.
Some of us are really going through it…smiling through pain that we may not have even shared with others. I recently watched a short clip of a video in which the narrator spoke of letting go of the “bullshit”. Letting go of people we know “good and well” don’t have our best intentions at heart. They went on to say it is time to connect with your real family; your soul family. Now, to that I could relate. By and by, more and more, people have been coming into my life for some divine ass missions; things I couldn’t see coming if I had a crystal ball the size of the Earth herself…when I really meditated on the synchronicity I have been experiencing, things began to make sense. I still often wonder what it all means and it is okay that I don’t know yet. Part of this life change that I am moving through is not having all the answers but still being at peace with the Creator’s ultimate purpose.
We can’t hold on to our old selves, and it is definitely not fair for our blood family to hold on to an old “us”. We sense the discomfort, the anxiety and the sadness because we hesitate to fully be ourselves…and that is where our soul family comes in. Chances are, they are going through the same vibes and need some sort of respite, a place where they can remove the mask and smile inside out, knowing that they are loved. I am at that place and I will never look back, except to celebrate how far I have come. It is not easy being at this crossroad but I have to choose my growth over pleasing others and appeasing others, even my family…it’s that damn important. Love will win though, it always does.
Such a cutie pie song…#roominhere There’s room in my heart, always!