Spring is love

I am so happy that Spring is upon us…a time to give thanks for new life, fresh flowers, and warm weather. My “baby” girl also just turned 17! I did find myself pondering how quickly the time has flown since I became her mother. It is bittersweet knowing that I am entering into a new phase of motherhood, one where my nestlings are not so dependent on me and their Papa as much. It is of course very nice to have children that can do a lot for themselves but I still have my tearful moments. I’ve simply enjoyed being a Mom so much! Spring is a very special time and it means new babies abound in nature. 💛 It’s a beautiful time of year and a reminder that life is so fleeting, and so we must enjoy every minute…Happy Spring!☀️⚘🌻💚

You’ve taught me well

Endings are simply beginnings in disguise. It hurts like hell to say goodbye to ways of being that are so familiar and full of love…what now? How do I fill this new space? Such questions have been filling my mind now that I officially have a child in college and one not far behind. Motherhood is something I refused to lose the battle with…I thrived on caring for my young; raising the next generation. I know I will always be a Mom, just gotta reinvent myself…cut the umbilical cord I’m learning; allow them to move on their paths graciously; I’ve taught them well. Eye trust that they will remember. I have good days where I’m excited about an unknown future, yet afraid to fully let go of the past. And I won’t, as it encompasses 99% of my being, my reason, my happiness…Motherhood is me, my peace and my joy. And now I will give birth to more dreams, visions turned to realities and more creativity. My children taught me to “not worry” about the small things…just keep drawing, laughing and loving. Thank you my loves…<3

Precious one

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I will twist and turn to see you…even with no sound or movement I will hear you and that is because I feel you. Your heart shaped face, your large, round eyes draw me nearer until I am lost in your forest. Together, we will fly and land on the tallest of trees, so free. We will take turns sheltering each other through the night with our wings. There is a song that I plan to sing to you until you fall asleep, and then when you do, I will look upon you so very sweetly as if you are all there is. ❤

In love with you…

When you go to sleep feeling so loved and wake up feeling even more loved, it is the best feeling in the world. Sometimes, we think that our actions are not noticed, the things we do or say to others. And so we do more, to say “Hey” Look at me!! Love is no doubt felt in the core of the soul when it is real; nothing can deny or cover up loves’ growing energy. Ego will die in this discovery, this search for a thirst that can only be quenched by our true reflection/s.

Reflect back to me all that you love.and as you look in my eyes, you will see it too. 

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Anger; the heart’s defense

Don’t indulge yourself in the passion of anger, it is whetting a sword to wound your own breast or murder your friend” *Akhenaton

…I am a peaceful soul, but I remember times when my anger would get the best of me. I would think something was wrong with me as I’d soak my cheeks in hot tears…often times my emotions truly were played around with and it would hurt me, then anger me. I’d pick up whatever object was near me and sling it angrily, yes, I would…I really do try to control my anger when I feel it. It is definitely not a bad emotion or something we should hurry up and move through…we should always acknowledge when we are angry because it is necessary. It is how we process anger that makes or breaks us…who hasn’t said a word to someone out of anger and regretted it afterward or done worse? I am pretty sure we all have. There was anger in my little heart for a while when I was a young girl, I think it was a defense mechanism for having been made fun of in school, witnessing things that were wrong and painful and feeling powerless about it all…it hurt. Some folks made me feel like it was wrong to be angry, they’d tell me my face will stay in a frown if I don’t smile more; I kept frowning…

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I will never forget the angels in my path that helped me to realize that it is okay and healthy to be angry. There’s not a soul out there that is happy all of the damn time…we live in a world where we cannot even begin to control others, the things that go on around us or the things we hear folks say or see them do…and yes, many times we find ourselves immersed in anger! We may get furious over simple things as well, like being stuck in traffic or worse; getting a parking ticket. But again, it is all about moving through the energy of anger in a way that doesn’t bring us down. Anger is most definitely a beneficial emotion; it protects us, alerts us to what is wrong in our world, and tests us. I have been tested many times and had to retake the tests to prove that I could be angry and okay. I write, I take a walk, I cry, I yell,  I hold a crystal close to my heart, I meditate, pray for guidance or go to sleep when I am angry…usually these things work…but sometimes, I just need time, silence and patience with myself to move through. I know my limits, I know that my temper is great for things I am passionate about and for that, I don’t apologize. I do as much as I can to nurture my soul especially in these times. It is a must to balance anger out with other healthy emotions, and so it is.