As this year begins to come to a close, I am choosing to purposefully spend more time in nature…it helps to keep me grounded and connected to the magic eye can’t always see immediately but feel deep inside. Nature calls to me, and has been calling since I was a little girl. I never feared it, but always had a deep respect and reverence for it.
Yesterday, as I walked along a trail, I would stop every so often and put my hands upon the cypress trees and I felt so supported. I thanked them for their sturdiness, their “inner tallness” representing my spirit; I have been told this by a beautiful soul most recently, thank you goddess! ❤
I plug in and I tune out the noise in my mind, the questions, the incessant list of things to do, the schedules that make up my life and I am still. I am open to peace and tranquility when I am in nature. What a gift, truly…I felt the energy of faeries as I peeped into tiny little spaces covered in bright green moss. I smiled to myself, knowing they were there and feeling their magical presence. Nature has all of the clarity I need and when I walk out of the woods and head back home, I always feel so much lighter.
As I drove down the highway, I swear the clouds were creating a pathway for us to drive right through the sky. So crystal clear was the road and a moment of random bliss made us dismiss any notions of doubt… How long can I stretch this moment out?
We almost always laugh at the same thing without even saying what it is, just knowing.
Still learning, still growing and learning to let go, all the while knowing we are making room for more to blossom and grow through us.
How beautiful is it to rejoice in another’s strangeness, not wanting to alter or change it…
“And I promise, I vow to do this work with all of my heart…to recognize every birth as a work of art. I will help keep the gates clear of loud noises, bright lights and will help every mama to make consented choices. Come little one, you are safe, your entrance into this world, with love I will help to create…”
Gathering round in a circle, singing and dreaming of better days…your palm in mine strengthens my mind for the days ahead. Preparing for her special debut; Full Moon. So beautiful, so strong and so present. Wanting to be more present myself in all that I do. Holding myself up in the light, I feel it…I look around to see everyone absorbing and taking it all in. First a sliver, then the clouds open up and magic pours from them, turning us all into shimmering stones, sparkling brighter from laughter and joy. Emotions on high, speaking with direct intention and paying attention to the flow of my words. The sweetest things are revealed just as she appears in all her glory. All night we tell stories and we vow to hold each other up in love.
Transformation is the key, the process by which I become a better me…flowering internally, vast like eternity…I feel a connection to the trees, how they flower in Spring and in the Autumn, they bring change…the birth pangs of life creating in me something new, something strange…I knew this time would come, there is no place to run or hide, my eyes are open wide…cracking open the code to really feel what it takes to grow…realizing that it’s okay for all of my emotions to show. Especially love and sadness, how about happiness, and what of anger? Life lessons are always going to be synonymous with our emotional expressions…it is okay to hurt, it is okay to feel lost, it is okay to be overwhelmed and afraid. We don’t always know the rules of the games being played…so let us remember the words we utter every day to ourselves…are they sweet? Are they kind? Do we give ourselves permission to “fall behind?” Not so much, but we should, we could and we can…all we have is this moment and worry is nothing but the mind’s torment; which can be to our detriment. And so I am speaking to myself when I say, just be treated by the beauty of this day.. It is new and refreshing, a beautiful blessing…just. like. me. AND just. like. you.