We are officially in Gemini Season!! Here is to laughter, youth, adventure, and springing to action; all great things we Geminis are known for. If there was only one word to describe us, I would say it is “magical”. We are in touch with our inner child for the most part, which allows us to embrace youth around us. We will usually approach life with excitement; especially when we learn something we didn’t know before. We are known to have “two sides”…one is supposedly our “good” side and the other is, well not one that we prefer to show unless provoked. Either way, we often get a bad rap for being “flighty” and indecisive. Which is not hard to believe as we are always in our heads…but we do know how to focus and keep our attention on something. Especially when we feel it is warranted. Some of the sweetest and kindest folks I know are Geminis and I am not just saying this because I am one…I love them and how real they are…I feel like they are the “stardust” of the zodiac. Shine on Gem in Eyes!!! ❤
Journey completing, coming to an end…but a soft whisper in my ear lets me know my joy is anxiously awaiting to begin…No more wondering and wishing…the pathway is so clear…the sound of laughter, my own; permeates my whole being…I am so ready to begin sensuously living…without fear. Watering my soul, filling me and making me whole…swimming with the current instead of against it.
So ready for your dreams and sweetness…share with me what is inside of your head…what is flowing? You possess innate knowing and I feel it…Looking towards the stars and Eye see you, coming out to shine. The secrets you share will be yours and mine, thank you for trusting me to keep them. I love the twinkle behind your magical eyes; you truly are an ethereal prize, to be treasured and loved. Pisces, the sign that is always between two worlds…the artist who will never even begin to explain their work, because it is deeper than them. An abyss of wonder, magic and many lifetimes…genuine old souls with beautiful spirits; Star Fish.
Last night, I dreamed of desiring to “speak in Mermaid”…and I am serious as I ever will be! My dreams last night were a slide show of pure magic. In them, I embraced my loves; my children, my dear sisters, my family…and I wanted to know how I could be even more magical. I owe it to the New Moon in Aquarius; the boundary breaker. Aquarius sees with eyes that not all see through; they open new doors to new possibilities. The ethereal, “Water Bearer” yet an air sign with ever-present knowledge. They believe in what is yet to come and often feel light years away from this mundane world. I burned a candle (sat it in a bowl of water) and drifted off to sleep. I sometimes dream so sweetly that when I awake, I try to fall back asleep and pick up where I left off, but that rarely happens! So, I pull out a journal and write as much as I can remember. Last night was so special; it was if all that I love was wrapped around my heart; squeezing it so tightly that bliss rained around me. I woke up feeling promise, joy and a knowing deep inside that my life is moving towards everything I have been wishing for. My older daughter said to me; “Mama, January has been like the Monday of all months”…I couldn’t agree more. I went into this new year thinking, believing, knowing that things would be alright…I almost gave in to the tears that trailed my path because it wasn’t exactly what I had envisioned for the beginning of 2017…it was like remnants of 2016 wanted to hold onto me just a bit longer. But I have to keep swimming into the depths of the unknown…it is after all just the beginning.
Gemini~Gem in Eye…our season has arrived, what a wonderful time to be…to thrive and connect with that other side…of ourselves. Is it mysterious, flighty, passionate or meek? I take the time to seek…ribbons of thought twirling in my mind, colors fill the space and in each moment I shift…move to a new place. It is good to gather what is mentally needed and work off of it to connect in other ways…just when I think I can relax and play, like a tree in a storm my mind can sway and sway…forever young, caught in a place where age has no case, so many chase the dream of being young again, and for me, it is a state of mind, I don’t try too hard to grow “older”…it is just happening naturally, without forcing it, expecting it almost. Each stage in my life has to be met with gratitude, if I am to remain youthful in mind, body and spirit…if I’m quiet enough, I can hear it…
Pisces; Sweet Mystics, eyes of wonder and wisdom beyond their years…”Old Souls” they are called and rightly so, for what you are thinking, they almost always know…This is a sign that is near and dear to me and mostly because I have many a Pisces tugging on my heart strings. The sign of completion and culmination of the zodiac, the folks that you will rarely see “react”. They are too busy creating beautiful art or caring for someone with their larger than life hearts. Into their ethereal world is where they retreat, for sometimes life’s woes can be too much to defeat. Be patient and know that it has to be just so…for if you are truly connected, you will feel their precious love flow.
Just one more day…of Mercury’s retrograde, the first of this New Year and wow was it transitional for me. Usually, I go about my normal routine when I know a retrograde in Mercury is pending and I try very hard to be patient with myself. I’m a Gemini sun sign with Virgo rising and my Mercury is in Gemini, this is major for me! My three R’s come into play during the retrograde period; relax, review and remain calm as much as I can. However, during this particular retrograde, a new “R” came about; a reawakening. I was not expecting to invest so much emotionally during this retrograde, but I did, which was strengthening in a way. Especially connecting with my inner child and addressing things that caused painful memories. Creating a ritual that honored my little girl self gave way to forgiveness and allowing more room into my heart space for new experiences and love.
It was almost surreal; friends that I hadn’t seen in years came to my hometown and we connected, remembering times that seemed so far away from now. We shared laughs and stories of how we met, while watching our children interacting together as if time had never stopped for them. I thought of times when my life was transitioning and unfolding into new experiences; such as motherhood and so much more. Images, flashbacks and moments that have passed over the years suddenly were at the forefront of my life again as I remembered who I was, and who I still am but in a different capacity. I was deeply immersed in documentaries, books and discussions about the mystical aspects of life during this retrograde as well, just wanting to go deeper.
There was silence, yet my mind was noisy with thoughts that had never left me. I honored those memories and also honored the time I needed for clarity. I went to bed early some nights, wanting to write but not knowing how to get it all out. The inevitable feelings of anxiety about things I had been so sure of before the retrograde were tapping me on my shoulder for a different perspective and it was kind of exhausting. But I knew that trusting the process has been the best way forward so far. Thankfully the full moon in Leo was a very robust, joyful, enlightening and jovial moon and her balance was so welcome during this retrograde. So, while this time has most definitely been a major journey inward, I will relish the memories of it all as I make my way forward.
I wrote this piece some time ago…I took it out and read it today, feeling so drawn to the words and also reflective; noting the changes that have taken place since I’ve written this…
“She is a “good” woman by society’s standards; she is happily married, with two beautiful children, lives in a wonderful community, works part-time, writes in her spare time and loves to go out with her friends when she has “free” time. She feels so blessed and thankful for such a rich life. Family and friends that are as close to her heart as the moon is to the stars. She ponders life often, wonders about its mysteries and feels excited about its many possibilities. She does her best to stay in the moment, enjoying the sunshine, the joy; going through the rain and sometimes the pain. Learning that sometimes, instead of trying to stay dry, she should let the rain pour over her and through her soul, symbolically cleansing what might be stagnant and old. The thing is, she settles; she makes excuses for herself and later regrets them, always masking how she really feels…She is trying to rise above the stress that has built up over time. She doesn’t want to keep doing the same thing and hoping for a different outcome, for that would be insanity. She will not be afraid, even when those she loves the most let her down…She has to turn things around, she often feels overwhelmed and heavy with so many changes in so little time. She wonders why at times she is treated like she committed a crime when all she did, wants to do and needs to do is be herself. There is such a place where she can be herself; for she knows it well, it is deep inside her soul. She has been, it is a place where she can laugh, smile and enjoy just being at peace with those around her. How freeing it is to be accepted…we should never take for granted the relationships we have with those who love us…who really love us and don’t waste precious time criticizing or fault-finding. Life is too short, leave words of love rather than words of fear or anger; for tomorrow is not promised.”
When I wrote this piece, I was having some inner turmoil, I knew that my life needed to change and soon. I have been a master at disguising my pain behind a smile, a laugh and even telling myself that I was okay when deep down, I wasn’t. I felt like a failure when I couldn’t just “be happy” with everything that I had in my life. But there are two things that cannot long be hidden; the moon and the truth…My truth was trying so hard to come out, but I suppressed it…and I suffered when I suppressed it…many things have changed in my life since, but it is truly an ongoing road for me…the journey has not ended, it has begun and I have been going places I never even imagined. I allowed myself to shine from the inside out, and it feels so freeing, so alive, so right. I love the woman I have become so far, she is a testament to BEing authentic and real.
My beautiful Gemini Twin…I came to see you, making my rounds…had to see you and share a laugh or two…little did I know that there would be more in store…I would feel your words deep down to my core. You must have sensed what I needed to hear that night and a poem from your collection, you did openly share. As I listened intently, something struck me so suddenly…it was as if the words you had written were all about me. I looked up at you, tears streaming down my face…and you held my hand and it seemed to hold my soul in place. You said to me, “I know,” and at that point, I released…knowing that crying was okay in that beautiful space. I was so grateful to my Sister for sharing with me, words of wisdom from her own journey. She somehow knew what I needed to hear, words that would bring me even farther away from fear. Eternally grateful for the moment and lesson, and knowing that she and I have a blessed connection. I love you, my dear Sistar, Makeeba; you are the Abstract Oracle.
Some days, I really don’t mind being misunderstood…for it is a testament to my life’s journey. Not everyone is meant to understand the destiny, the path that I am on and it is okay. I have memories of dimming my light to allow others to shine brightly, but then I began to “blend in” so to speak. My light became one in the same with those around me…One day, however, sparks of blue, pink, bright yellows and greens illuminated from within. I was a living kaleidoscope of new dreams, truths and beautiful realizations of who I am and all that I could think of was filling my spirit with more colorful experiences…
There is now nothing more to fear other than fear itself. When I was afraid to shine my light in previous occasions, I was afraid of myself…afraid of reactions, intrigue and rejection to the Goddess I was becoming and am still blossoming into…