I have enjoyed watching my daughters’ relationship bloom and unfold. I think it’s sweet how they look out for each other. Sometimes, in the midst of their arguing, I long for the days when they were younger and oblivious. Such tiny little concerns they had; sharing toys, singing together, dancing and playing without a care in the world. Now my girls are teens, and are clinging to their individuality, being more assertive in the age of constant change. I listen in on their conversations that don’t always include me and I find myself chuckling quietly at what I hear. Such little ladies now; talking of clothes, boys and friendships. They both enjoy laughing with me and at me as I navigate through this new experience of raising teens. My youngest often needs more encouragement these days in the form of hugs and warm heart to hearts. She is my water baby and feels EVERYTHING. I tell her that she does not have to own any energy that doesn’t resonate with her spirit. My oldest is a little lioness and has been since the day she arrived. She speaks openly and is quite the charismatic one. I share with my daughters that it’s so important for them to hold their heads up when they walk, to be aware of their surroundings at all times and to read as much as they can. But most importantly, to cherish their bond as sisters…It is the greatest joy to be their Mama, to let them know I am always watching out for them like the grizzly I am, *smile*
As this year begins to come to a close, I am choosing to purposefully spend more time in nature…it helps to keep me grounded and connected to the magic eye can’t always see immediately but feel deep inside. Nature calls to me, and has been calling since I was a little girl. I never feared it, but always had a deep respect and reverence for it.
Yesterday, as I walked along a trail, I would stop every so often and put my hands upon the cypress trees and I felt so supported. I thanked them for their sturdiness, their “inner tallness” representing my spirit; I have been told this by a beautiful soul most recently, thank you goddess! ❤
I plug in and I tune out the noise in my mind, the questions, the incessant list of things to do, the schedules that make up my life and I am still. I am open to peace and tranquility when I am in nature. What a gift, truly…I felt the energy of faeries as I peeped into tiny little spaces covered in bright green moss. I smiled to myself, knowing they were there and feeling their magical presence. Nature has all of the clarity I need and when I walk out of the woods and head back home, I always feel so much lighter.
As I drove down the highway, I swear the clouds were creating a pathway for us to drive right through the sky. So crystal clear was the road and a moment of random bliss made us dismiss any notions of doubt… How long can I stretch this moment out?
We almost always laugh at the same thing without even saying what it is, just knowing.
Still learning, still growing and learning to let go, all the while knowing we are making room for more to blossom and grow through us.
How beautiful is it to rejoice in another’s strangeness, not wanting to alter or change it…
…I hope that I always have a space to grow flowers, herbs and plants. I pray that I always have books to read and learn from; simple pleasures that have always given me peace within. When I plant little seeds, I am learning about life…treasuring the earth’s bounty and gifts. If I am reading, I am learning something I did not know before. I have all that I need in the sweetness of flowers and in the power of books…
“And I promise, I vow to do this work with all of my heart…to recognize every birth as a work of art. I will help keep the gates clear of loud noises, bright lights and will help every mama to make consented choices. Come little one, you are safe, your entrance into this world, with love I will help to create…”