Star Fish

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So ready for your dreams and sweetness…share with me what is inside of your head…what is flowing? You possess innate knowing and I feel it…Looking towards the stars and Eye see you, coming out to shine. The secrets you share will be yours and mine, thank you for trusting me to keep them. I love the twinkle behind your magical eyes; you truly are an ethereal prize, to be treasured and loved. Pisces, the sign that is always between two worlds…the artist who will never even begin to explain their work, because it is deeper than them. An abyss of wonder, magic and many lifetimes…genuine old souls with beautiful spirits; Star Fish.

Awakening herself…

And ever so slowly she begins to awaken from her deep slumber…new life swells within her womb…What new songs will she sing when it is Spring? What new flowers will grow from the seeds of promise she planted last year? What will she conquer that she used to fear? Oh, many things…for she is giving birth to her amazing new self…watch her…

Anger; the heart’s defense

Don’t indulge yourself in the passion of anger, it is whetting a sword to wound your own breast or murder your friend” *Akhenaton

…I am a peaceful soul, but I remember times when my anger would get the best of me. I would think something was wrong with me as I’d soak my cheeks in hot tears…often times my emotions truly were played around with and it would hurt me, then anger me. I’d pick up whatever object was near me and sling it angrily, yes, I would…I really do try to control my anger when I feel it. It is definitely not a bad emotion or something we should hurry up and move through…we should always acknowledge when we are angry because it is necessary. It is how we process anger that makes or breaks us…who hasn’t said a word to someone out of anger and regretted it afterward or done worse? I am pretty sure we all have. There was anger in my little heart for a while when I was a young girl, I think it was a defense mechanism for having been made fun of in school, witnessing things that were wrong and painful and feeling powerless about it all…it hurt. Some folks made me feel like it was wrong to be angry, they’d tell me my face will stay in a frown if I don’t smile more; I kept frowning…

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I will never forget the angels in my path that helped me to realize that it is okay and healthy to be angry. There’s not a soul out there that is happy all of the damn time…we live in a world where we cannot even begin to control others, the things that go on around us or the things we hear folks say or see them do…and yes, many times we find ourselves immersed in anger! We may get furious over simple things as well, like being stuck in traffic or worse; getting a parking ticket. But again, it is all about moving through the energy of anger in a way that doesn’t bring us down. Anger is most definitely a beneficial emotion; it protects us, alerts us to what is wrong in our world, and tests us. I have been tested many times and had to retake the tests to prove that I could be angry and okay. I write, I take a walk, I cry, I yell,  I hold a crystal close to my heart, I meditate, pray for guidance or go to sleep when I am angry…usually these things work…but sometimes, I just need time, silence and patience with myself to move through. I know my limits, I know that my temper is great for things I am passionate about and for that, I don’t apologize. I do as much as I can to nurture my soul especially in these times. It is a must to balance anger out with other healthy emotions, and so it is.

 

Worthy…

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Deep in divine knowing…living in the moment…more meditation, more creation…less clutter in my life and in my psyche. Taking time to relish the sweet things; laughter, writing, walking among the flowers. Accessing my spirit, my higher power…always there, I breathe in the air and exhale anything that says otherwise…I. AM. SO. WORTHY. Repeat after me and have a blissful SUNday…

Deer Woman

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With a crown of flowers upon my head, I step lightly through the forest…magic is all around me and I take it in with my warm, watery eyes. I am quiet, observant, light on my path but I always know where I am meant to travel. I can be shy but I am not afraid. I do however, prefer to stay hidden, safe in the shelter of towering trees, as there are things that can hurt me that I don’t readily see. Sounds of birds calling are music to my ears and they are also my alarm if there is danger. I pay attention to rhythms and cycles in my sanctuary, they keep me alert and aware. I find that keeping quiet allows me to really hear what I need to hear. I listen with my heart, finding that it beats with peace when I am at peace. Things are not always what they seem, it hurts to know that this world can be cruel and mean. I do not allow this to stop me, I just keep walking, living and being. Deer woman is who I am, queen of stillness and lover of the forest.

Aquarius New Moon Dreams

Last night, I dreamed of desiring to “speak in Mermaid”…and I am serious as I ever will be! My dreams last night were a slide show of pure magic. In them, I embraced my loves; my children, my dear sisters, my family…and I wanted to know how I could be even more magical. I owe it to the New Moon in Aquarius; the boundary breaker. Aquarius sees with eyes that not all see through; they open new doors to new possibilities. The ethereal, “Water Bearer” yet an air sign with ever-present knowledge. They believe in what is yet to come and often feel light years away from this mundane world. I burned a candle (sat it in a bowl of water) and drifted off to sleep. I sometimes dream so sweetly that when I awake, I try to fall back asleep and pick up where I left off, but that rarely happens! So, I pull out a journal and write as much as I can remember. Last night was so special; it was if all that I love was wrapped around my heart; squeezing it so tightly that bliss rained around me. I woke up feeling promise, joy and a knowing deep inside that my life is moving towards everything I have been wishing for. My older daughter said to me; “Mama, January has been like the Monday of all months”…I couldn’t agree more. I went into this new year thinking, believing, knowing that things would be alright…I almost gave in to the tears that trailed my path because it wasn’t exactly what I had envisioned for the beginning of 2017…it was like remnants of 201wanted to hold onto me just a bit longer. But I have to keep swimming into the depths of the unknown…it is after all just the beginning.

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